What will remain

What will remain
When things fall apart
When I’m treading water in the void?
Who will stay
Who will pray
When we are drifting through the dark?
I remember stories I wrote in the past
I faintly remember having a plan
But right now I can’t see the way.
So much change.
So much is fading right now.
Stay. Stand by me.

Too much going on right now. People leaving. Changing friendships, a group falling apart. A new friend, met in an unlikely place. Anxiety about the future. Looking for a better job. Having to rely on my husband financially a lot. Feeling bad. Wanting to train hard but the body doesn’t comply. So much chaos in my mind. So much to learn.